"Perhaps love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself" ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery

I've been contemplative lately. I tend to do that when I have a lot of time to think.  The Quotation in the title of this entry caught my attention today.  I saw this on that quote a day box on the side of my blog.  It made a lot of sense to me at that moment.  That might explain why love has eluded me thus far.  Well here I am to say I'm turning over a new leaf and I'm willing to be out there and be more open to the experience.

 

My friend Eyrin said to me this week that happiness is really just many happy seconds strung together.  I find myself constantly trying to reach a resolution to everything in my life.  But it is true that it's about the journey and not the destination.  So I think my goal for the time being should be to enjoy each happy second instead of wondering how I find the resolution or the answer.  Enjoy this adventure and not worry where it will go or if it will go anywhere.  That for me is difficult, because I'm always looking for the result of the effort.  I want to know what will happen if I do x, y or z.  Perhaps I've had it wrong thus far and it's really not about that.  Maybe it's about just finding the joy in each little section and absorbing it all and letting it fill you up.  Maybe there is nothing wrong with just enjoying that elated feeling that comes with one happy second.  Maybe it isn't about making it last but just loving it while it exists.

 

Since I've found that holding on to moments for dear life doesn't make life good or make the moments last maybe it's the letting go that I need to work on.  For if I hang on to any one of those happy seconds, I'm missing the next one that is around the corner.

 

To truly love someone you have to be willing to let them go.  Hanging on doesn't make something better, it just removes it's choice to be there in that moment.  You can't live your life worrying that everything is going to disappear you merely have to love the moments that you have it. 

 

I've had many happy moments lately.  They have come and gone and they have filled me up and made me feel alive and joyful and hopeful.  There seems to be an abundance of them too because the moment one ends another one comes into being.